Blur.

The days, the hours, the weeks.
Dreams and daydreams and reality.
Seconds, episodes, seasons, people.
It has all become a blur.

I struggle to catch my breath,
To keep my feet on the ground,
To keep my head on straight,
To get everything done,
To read it all,
Write it all,
Pray it all.
To love through it all.

Not since its inception has my blog's URL been so fitting.
When I first created this place, I was in three different choirs,
I was a leader in my youth group,
I was a senior in high school.
I was busy and I loved it.

Now I am in two music groups,
Student Council,
Campus Activities.
I live in a freshman dorm with an RA who I want to be able to support.

I don't see most of my friends,
I haven't been home since August 24,
I haven't had a moment without obligation in weeks.

I spend hours running from event to event, and on the days when I only have one class, I try to catch up on everything else but I just can't ever get anything finished.
I don't know how to shut down and shut off.
I'm afraid that if I close my eyes to my obligations for just a second that I won't open them again.

I don't love the busyness so much anymore.
It's killing my spirit.

And yes, I understand the irony of taking time to write a post about everything I need to get done instead of spending this time doing it.
But it's called a study break.
I'll go back to studying for my Chronicles midterm as soon as this is posted.

But, if you think of me this week, please pray for me.
For my attitude, for my heart, for my tests, and for my drive home.
For everything that I need to do over break.
For whatever the Spirit leads you to pray.
Thank you.