"A problem that you have had."

Rejection.
And avoiding it.
And how I deal with it.

I spent the month of March trying for jobs and whatnot and didn't get anything.
And I didn't deal with it properly.

I really did believe that God had something else for me.
But I never admitted that I was terrified as to what that might be.
I never admitted that I was desperate to find out what was coming.
That much rejection had to be leading up to something amazing, right?

So I put on a brave face through it all.
It wasn't for a couple of months that I finally yelled it all out.
I finally admitted that I was angry about it all.

I avoid rejection, too.
I don't try.
I wait for offers that I know aren't going to fall through.
I've been lazy about school, searching for jobs, thinking seriously about the future.

But that's changing.
I'm learning how to confront my problems and emotions.
I'm learning how to take things into my own hands.

I'm learning.