in one week.

I will try not to cry as I write this.

"Jane Eyre" is next weekend.
my parents are coming to the performance on Friday night.
since I don't have classes on Fridays, I will get to spend some time with them before the show.
my mom told me that she's taking me shopping.
I'm really excited.
I haven't seen my family since break, and I won't be going home until Spring Break.
for some people (i.e. the international students) this is normal, and it's a little unfair for me to say this.
but I'm used to seeing my family all the time.
I miss them.
so, one week from today, I will be with my parents.

I have a lot to do before then.
in one hour I will be at dry tech rehearsal. "All scene changes, all the time."
tomorrow is wet tech. we will be rehearsing for most of the day.
then I think I'm going to several Burger Kings to obtain crowns.
Sunday I have church, babysitting, Agape Fire, and watching a movie with a friend.
more rehearsals next week, the show opens on Thursday morning for the home schools.
shows Thursday night, Friday night, Saturday afternoon, and Saturday night.
strike until late.
then I will need sleep. badly.

but the show isn't the only thing going on in my life.
I still have classes next week and, unlike high school, I can't coast in college.
rehearsals happen later here, and because of my schedule and time management failure, I end up awake at 2:00 in the morning reading for my literature class.
I think I'm expected to read all of Till We Have Faces by Thursday in class.
but I have to be at the show during that class.
I feel like I can't win.
I just want it to be one week from now.

if I weren't a theatre person, I think it would be worse.
I was an English Ed major when I scheduled my classes, and I needed a media lab.
Drama Production was the only one that would fit.
when I switched, I could have dropped the class, but I was already dropping Ed Ped (smirk. Ed Ped.)
I'm the only non-theatre major or minor in the class, and on the first day no one knew what to do with me.
I said "I'm a theatre person, I understand."
as I go to rehearsals, I realize how true that is.
I love this stress and busyness.
I love watching as the actors and directors and stage managers (I'm going to throw the ASMs and props mistress into this category) work together to make this show as good as it can be.
I love the way everyone is coming together and realizing that they have six days to get this ready for an audience.
I don't know that a non-theatre person (someone who doesn't have theatre experience or someone who doesn't enjoy theatre) could stand this.

I might get frustrated.
I might snap at people who don't deserve it.
I might actually end up punching Nate/Alex in the face.
(I hope that doesn't happen, but they're doing well enough at the role that I've been getting genuinely upset.)
but I will persevere.
because I get to see my parents in one week.

"My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness."